A couple of months ago I had convinced myself that ivf, that
having a baby of my own may not be possible. A couple of months ago I had
almost given in! Then came the contest Win a Baby from The New Hot 899 and now
I am at the beginning of a round of IVF. How things can change… J
Ryan and I are now embarking upon our first and hopefully only
round of IVF. We are optimistically realistic coming into this process, but we
are beyond excited. My original plan was
not to get my hopes up, you here of it taking multiple rounds and how that can
wear on a person; however now that I am here it is hard to contain my excitement.
In just a few short months and a crazy roller coaster ride I went from having
to face maybe never having a child to being at the clinic where it can all
happen; picking up my injection kit.
Now that our dream is within reach its hard not to picture
our little boy or girl, hard not to talk about names and a future; where before
I wouldn’t dare let myself go there.
Even though the process is beyond not fun, the nausea,
headaches, acne and soon to come hot flashes and mood swings; it is more than
worth it. My hubby was stressing coming into this process, knowing the toll
that a round of IVF can take on someone.
It plays havoc on your body, strains you emotionally and pushes the
boundaries of your relationship. So when
January came and even though I knew exactly what I was facing; I still had a
smile on my face, was super positive and excited about starting hormones…I knew
I was ready.
So when the day came; I made the phone call, one simple phone
call that can change our lives forever, I called in to start our round of IVF.
Writing down all the details, appointments, the do’s and don’ts I couldn’t help
but just beam (and maybe do a little happy dance). At a recent appointment to
learn about the injections I will be soon starting and how this whole process
works, I was watching my next few months being mapped out.
I’ve been on a pill for a few weeks now, next is a daily
injection that lowers my estrogen levels (similar to menopause) to trick my
brain into not paying attention to the multiple eggs I will be growing. After a
few weeks I get blood work to determine that my estrogen levels are low enough
(starting at a base line) and if they are at the magic number I start a second
daily injection that will increase my estrogen levels and create multiple eggs
instead of the usual one. After a couple weeks of this and multiple blood work
and ultrasound appointments they will be able to tell us when we can have them
removed, A trigger shot is taken to tell the body to release the eggs and the
procedure is booked. From then on out you hope for multiple healthy eggs and
you hope that you get many healthy viable embryos.
This process has a lot that needs to line up and even if
everything goes perfect we have a 50% chance at the end of the day. I don’t think
I have ever been so excited to inject myself with a needle…lol
No matter how this process turns out, we are and will
forever be beyond grateful to the mazing people at the new hot 899 for making
this happen, for giving us and four other great couples a chance at making our
dreams come true.
Because if you never take a chance, if you never try, you
will never know!
Lotsa Love,
Natasha